Why I hate Religion

I am a Minister of Pain and Death Ordained by Fire and I Hate Religion. Broad is the way of destruction, the path to Life is narrow and only a FEW find it. Many people reject the True Gospel and I'm not just talking about those of another faith or aithests, I'm talking about decieved Christians. For years now, when I think of 2 Timothy 4 and Paul's warning that many will wander off into myths, I think of growing up Catholic, my older brother Patrick is a Priest and has multiple degrees, I believe that Catholicism is one of those myths but it saved my ass in 1980. Mary was married before, I took her to him to get an annulment so that I could marry her "in the Church" somewhere in the process, I got her pregnant but didn't know it before I broke up with her over another argument, I got laid off my Machinist job and joined the USAF, my oldest brother John recruited me. Sabrina was born while I was in Basic Training. I paid Child Support and all that, but I was an absent father and she grew up a bastard. That was my ultimate Sin that I believe drives her fury to destroy me now. I didn't marry Mary until nine years after I Retired from the USAF, Sabrina at 32 was her Mom's Bridesmaid, we were both 51. I didn't know exactly what it was until 2 years into the marriage, but I had a terrible time dealing with her level of suspicion and constant accusations, seeking help from Pastor Jeff and I went to the VA seeking mental health and marriage counciling, that's when I found out about Othello's Syndrome. I described what was upsetting me so much and the PA who was percribing the "coping mechanism" drug pulls out his DSM-5 and read me the symptoms for Delusional Morbid Jealousy, Mary's picture could have been in there, it fit her to the Tee and then some. I endured 5 more years of that living hell until she got legal on me threatening to call the cops if I even thought about spanking her, she got to the point where she would not submit to me in anyway in anything trying to control everything about me and making me feel like shit for having any pleasure, she made me even more miserable than before. It's when her and Sabrina tried to 302 me that things got really ugly, it was the start of the legal abuse that brought us to where we are now. I can't imagine a more obvious case of Abusing the legal system to Abuse me, but absolutely nobody believes me "that's just how the system works" Sadly, there are thousands of cases that are much worse than mine, I'm very lucky I didn't end up in jail like Many Men do and there aren't minor children involved, that's another level of hell I can barely think about without getting sick and sure is going to complicate Leprechaun rescue missions.

My other legal issue was from Religious Abuse, but of course, such a thing can't happen because respected Pastors can't ever be wrong about anything because of their standing in the church. Man, you have to be a serious asshole for your own trusted Pastor to call the Cops on you. Bob Paulson was my Redemption Group Leader when I quit drinking and smoking before I got married, in fact after confessing my deepest regrets in life, he got me thinking maybe I can make amends for my sinful past life and marry Mary after all. I actually wanted to marry her at Mars Hill, but I wasn't officially a member and we didn't have time to do the classes they sell you. It's where I got Baptized as an adult. We got married at the UNM Duck Pond instead and moved back to Pennsylvania. I thought Bob knew me very well at least when it came to the Lord, I didn't expect to see such evil from him when I got back here after being legally forced to run from an abusive marriage. I needed Godly council and also went to the VA as much as I could, I went everywhere I could for help, but got nothing but bullshit from any of them. Like Bob saying that I must not be praying hard enough or some other way to fault me when I went into great depth with him about everything. He was one of the only visitors I had in my RV when I was living at Kirtland's FamCamp, he worked very close by at Sandia National Labs and came by after work one day. He was preaching to me about how God hates divorce and left my camper saying "you guys sure have a lot of work to do" I couldn't believe what I was hearing! I'm dealing with an accusation level so deep that any kind of communication, even attempting any is a "threat to their safety" and I'm being blamed for causing a stroke from 2,000 miles away 4 1/2 months after I left her. Here's a Pastor thinking I must still be guilty of some kind of sin to deserve shit like that. I was in trouble big time and desperately needed help, but my cheating, wife beating reputation and having a PFA against me makes me a very bad boy that can't be trusted to tell the truth about anything.

Mars Hill Church dissolved after Mark Driscoll the Lead Pastor of a multiState mega church was Accused of plagerism and the Albuquerque Campus became North Church. They were going through the Gospel of John when I got back in 2018. I've been a member of the Pocket Testament League for many years, member # 284983. They distribute pocket sized Gospels of John, I thought it was a good fit for the church and offered to put on a presentation or, let one of the Pastors do it or, at least let me set up a table in the foyer to let the congregation know about this nifty evangelism idea. I mentioned it to Bob first, but also to a few other church members that knew me or, at least I thought they knew me. They all knew about the divorce and why I'm back in New Mexico which somehow makes me a sinful bad person and nobody should listen to a word from anyone who would run out on his wife like a coward and cause her to have a stroke. I'll never understand that reaction to an evangelism idea, I was terribly disappointed at that evil. The cosmic powers over this present darkness and the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places, what North Church should be, but isn't. I tell Gary's story in another post, I knew he was dying and was desperately trying to get him help, I posted my public execution post on Facebook Saturday night and showed it to Bob after church on Sunday hoping to get some sort of reaction like an offer to help me get him some help to stay alive. Nope, that's when Bob called the Police on me. I was taken into custody by the Base Security Guards when I went to go back to the FamCamp after church, they took me to the VA for another phycological evaluation then put in a holding cell for a while and arrested and taken to jail around 1 am Monday morning. I did two nights in different jails after two court appearances in chains. I didn't know Federal Prisoners were strip searched everytime they move us, that added so much fun to the experience. I was looking at 5 years in Federal Prison and of course, that's when I was red flagged by the VA and Kirtland AFB To this day I'm still banned from Kirtland automatically for 5 years eventhough the case was dismissed with prejudgice after serving 17 months Probation, I'll be shot on sight if I try to go onto the same base I retired from. There goes any kind of support I had and where I was living, they gave me one hour to get my RV off the base for good for the Sin of pissing off the VA. Pretty damned dishonered for a friggen Facebook post.

I have a bit more to add about Bob that adds to the story but need a break, it gets worse and is going to really bring heat on me from multiple angles, but fuck it, this is Spiritual Warfare and I'm going to fight the good fight, I'm not backing down, I can't see how I can be dishonored anymore than I already have been. The battle is already won, I cannot fail, even if it kills me, people are going to talk shit about me for the rest of my life anyway, at least they'll have the accurate story, not that they'll believe me anyway, I'm a bad person, but I hope to be a good Angel.